MY STRATEGIES ON AVOIDING STRATEGIES
When I think
about my work and my strategies for creation, I realize that I am far from
being practical or functional. It seems as if I would prefer not to be very
economical and effective. There is something about "immediate results" that I
don't like, that I don't trust, that I don't enjoy so much. Arriving somewhere
is not necessarily my goal or my focus. Creating for me has much more to do
with experiencing something than with producing something. I am interested in
actively involving and exposing myself to something and observe how it affects
me, where it leads me creatively, and where it transports me as a person and as
a creator. So rather than using the experience in order to construct a final
object, I am interested in the experience of the creative process itself. What
I mean is that I am not busy with selecting things in order to arrive somewhere
but while creating I am busy acknowledging the diversity and the ranges of all
the different contents that arise during the creative process. I feed myself
from the difference, the contradiction and the paradoxes that I encounter,
letting the experience imprint itself in my body and in my mind. I arrive
somewhere without determining exactly where, but it is exactly that lack of
calculated control that is important to me. It is as if I would need to lose
myself in what I do in order to find my way and in order to get a deeper
understanding of what I am doing and why I am doing it. It gives me the sense
of embodying and owning what I do without premeditating a specific result.
My concern and
my focus have been on understanding how I can share with the audience the value
of what is inside a creative process and how I can make people recognize the human
values, mechanisms and issues that are revealed in it. Until now I have seen
myself as the most palpable evidence of my creative process which has made me
conclude that exposing myself as the primary participant to an audience without
holding onto anything than the experience of the creative process itself, would
allow my actions to reveal and give access to those natural mechanisms,
patterns and values I am interested to mirror and to share. Through putting
myself in a process on stage where I am exposed/forced to discover while doing,
I wish to bring people closer not just to the contents of a creative process,
but to the natural way of how things organize themselves. My imprinted
experience of the creative process and the moment will constantly inform me and
feed my improvisation while generating a product that is never going to be
repeatable but that in turn will inform and feed my next improvisation. I
recycle experiences in order to have something to relate to or to resist and
often use my resistance towards my own intents of structuring something in
order to create something else in the moment. What is important to me is to
find ways in which I am honestly confronted with not knowing in order to be
able to observe what I find in there and how I can work with it. I am trying to
understand how I can make people perceive that although they came to the
theatre to watch an art product; what I am trying to make them experience is an
art process that becomes a product in that moment.
At the moment I am busy with widening my ways for exposing and
sharing with the audience my idea of process. I am
interested not just in experimenting with different performance formats that
apply to a conventional theater space, and to different alternatives to that,
but also to explore how I can find support through different mediums (as film,
photography, writing, collage ... etc.) that will help me to document and leave
traces of my process. (see link below). While researching for suitable formats
for my work I inevitably ask myself what is a piece and what is the
relationship to process to this definition of piece?
LINK: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FfD-7PoltGQ – 1 minute 46 seconds of my intent to give output to the remains and the
traces of my reflections.
(28.12.2009)
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